I'm talking about food consciousness. It is so easy for me to eat obliviously. I eat the same things, the same wrong things, day after day like I'm in some sort of fat trance. Trying to break that habit has been difficult. I am trying to really think about what I put into my mouth every day and make sure I'm making healthy choices. I'm not going to lie, it's hard for me. Today at approximately 11:45am my car starting pointing towards an In and Out Burger all by itself. I had to think fast to dodge the hamburger giant and ended up eating ahi tuna sushi with some green tea. It's like I'm coming out of the fog of fat or something?
Oh, I have to tell you I bought a bunch of those Kashi protein and fiber bars for emergency snack rations. I put them in my purse, in my car, and in my office. In the hopes that if I got that OMG I NEED FOOD NOW OR I'M GOING TO KILL SOMEONE feeling, I could choose a Kashi bar instead of say a handful of chocolate and an extra large Coke. I did have a moment today mid-morning when I got a little feeling of hunger, so I tried the Kashi bar. It wasn't bad. It wasn't french fries either. It had the mild taste of peanuts with the texture of tree bark. I'm sure I'll get used to it. *sigh*
I worked out with the kids tonight on Wii sports and had a ball. I think I might have thrown out my shoulder serving a tennis ace, but beating my nine year old was worth it.
And...in case you were wondering, (which you probably weren't, but just in case) the wierd unexplained kidney pain is still there. It comes and goes. I've decided to ignore it and pretend that it doesn't exist. (Kind of like my Kankles.)
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