Day 6 - Everyone Has to Have Goals

It's Day 6 and I keep getting asked about my goals for this silly blog/diet/exercise/lifestyle change thing I'm doing here. If I suddenly shrunk to a size 0 super-model that would be utterly fantastic. However, I'm not living in a dream-land here. I'm trying to look at this experience as a long term goal to get healthy, not necessarily to "lose weight" only.

I'm not weighing myself every day, because I don't want to obsess with the scale. I did Weight Watchers before and I used to weigh myself a dozen times a day. I was ridiculous. I'm not going there again. Weight is only one way to measure success.

I'm judging my success by how I feel in my clothes. Lord knows I have a closet full of clothes that I haven't been able to squeeze into for a long time. If I can wear them again it will be like having a whole new wardrobe! I might even have to go out and buy some new duds? I can firmly admit that I haven't worn a dress in at least two years. Seriously. I depise the way my legs look in skirts right now, so I wear pants...everywhere. A personal goal for myself will be to wear a dress and feel good wearing it. I felt my most comfortable when I was a size 10, and that is the goal I have set for myself. I don't want to be a Kate Moss type anorexia ad-campaign girl, I want to be me at my best.

I will feel healthy again. Being overweight has made me feel crappy. I am out of breath doing simple tasks and I seem to catch every bug that comes through town as well. Just in the past year I've dealt with:

Obstructive Sleep Apnea
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease
Anxiety/Depression
Sinus Infections

I'm sure that 90% of my illness is the direct result of my weight and lack of physical activity. So my ultimate goal is to GET HEALTHY! I want to feel strong, in shape, and ready to kick some butt again! I want to be able to play soccer with my boys, or do jujitsu with them without being out of breath and so sore I can't move.

To provide motivation my husband and I have agreed to take a Carribbean Cruise when I reach my goals for myself as a reward. I would love nothing more than to wear a bathing suit in public and feel okay with it.

I have a great support system at home and for the first time in my life I feel like I'm setting realistic goals for myself.